Inspiration

Just checking in and saying hi.

Following many blogs and seeing so many dreams come true.

I've still been reflecting and thinking about things so nothing new to report yet on that front. Maybe soon.

In the meantime, I came across this quote that inspired me and maybe will for you, too!

"There is force in the universe, which, if we permit it, will flow through us and produce miraculous results."

— Mahatma Gandhi

The End of This Chapter

I received news yesterday morning of the result: negative. Since then I've been having difficulty trying to express my thoughts and feelings into words.

Sadness.

This chapter closes and I will take the next several months to collect myself and think about what's next. Feeling many things like, why?, anger, confusion, sadness, motivation. Anxiety; I just want to hit the fast forward button to where I have that feeling of getting a positive result and working towards being a parent like I knew at one time. Everything has been done correctly and properly as far as I know, unsure why we had to try 5 times.

I would like to see how things go over the next few months with family, work, and in my mind I'd like to start the next chapter and go back to India tentatively for January or February. We'll see.

Sincere thanks to everyone who has shared their support with me. I will keep reading and keep following everyone's blogs; they inspire and make me happy and your blogs, as well as posts here have helped me gather myself when I've been feeling down and helped me feel not-so alone during those times.

I will keep updating my own blog when I have some news.

Thanks to all!

In the meantime, will keep dreaming...

Waiting

Today is the 2 week date! Although still waiting to hear and not exactly sure yet when the test will be done.

Hoping for the best but also have to be prepared and plan for the worst.

Hopefully will hear soon!