Dreaming of Baby

No news but just more dreams...

This one from last night was just me and baby. I was carrying it around, holding it and just being completely and utterly in a state of happiness. It was a little baby boy.

I'm glad I can be happy with baby in dreams until it hopefully happens in waking life.

A New Hope, A New Light

Chatted with Dr. S today and a new friend, which made me emotional and teary-eyed to have people reach out half-way around the world even if just words in an e-mail.

Made me feel inspired, hopeful and recharged to remain positive.

Thank you.

Result: -

I heard from India today.

Cycle 4 was negative.

I was not surprised as I hadn't heard anything in over a week from when the result was supposed to be ready.

Will try again for cycle 5. I am not getting discouraged at all, only even more determined. My only low point was when I lost the baby in cycle 3.

Until Dr. M tells me to stop or I'm barred from ever going to India again, there will only be 1 outcome to all of this and that will be positive. I was a dad if only even for a weeks and I will be again.

North Star

So happy for my colleague, who's now in Kazakhstan and posted a picture today of holding up baby with a big smile and wearing a Canada t-shirt (to celebrate Canada Day yesterday).

Hopefully I will hear good news soon too, as well...

North Star

Where are you

Come guide me home

This love

Won't end

If I see you soon

I can't turn night to day

I can explain it

Oh please

North star, come bring me home

It's been a long time coming

But it's well worth waiting

And I raise my hands

And ask for nothing more

If we are of the same mind, finally

It was worth the calamity of you being mad at me

You know I've got feelings too they come stealing through

And batter me properly revealing my sensitivity

We don't get this time for free

Take my hand and promise me your love and honesty

And this soliloquy would not have been in vain

On our journey of life let's take the slow train

(It's been a long time coming)

Waiting for the train

(It's well worth waiting)

Take my hand

(And I raise my hands)

We don't get this time for free

(And ask for nothing more)

Hey...

It's been a long time coming

But it's well worth waiting

And I raise my hands

And ask for nothing more

It's been a long time coming...

This bright star shining...